Life is a Journey: Live it (Part 32)

The other autobiography
„Now you can continue, as what you said makes sense to us. We young people must learn from you. I mean, our parents don`t sit down with us and share their stories. Bits and pieces here and there, that is all we hear from them. To know their true life stories, we do not get to know them too well. So, we depend on older people having something to share. We might not accept all you say, but what we certainly can do is to listen and draw our own conclusions from it. So, anything of value that old folks keep telling us without forcing their views on us is most welcome. Are you?“ Tobias Wittmann asked the others, and all knotted. Susanne Fröhlich added she too would not hear much of her parents generations that seems to be too busy to manage life and juggle around with daily challenges. People beyond pension age take life from a different perspective. After all, they have gone through a lot, and when lived a life in reflection can add valuable insights to the lives of the young ones. Yes, therefore, my contributions certainly mattered and added to their future.

I smiled an continues with a clear focus to get it right and make them understand my message in the intended way. „We often talk about mistakes that we make. I have my problems with that term, looking back on my story. My life was full of what is commonly called mistakes. I seemingly lost time here, and I certainly strayed from the path I had to walk on. But stop here. Let's think. Are these mistakes really mistakes in the deepest meaning of the term, or are they not rather stepstones we must embrace and walk on? I mean, they lead us to another level we might otherwise have never climbed, and from that level we climbed by our mistakes, climbed onto another level, so that eventually we will reach our destiny? In other words, if we had not made these so-called mistakes, we would not end up where we are today and where we will be tomorrow, just before we die with no chance to correct anything, looking back on our life on earth.“

„If I get you right,“ Franz Kleve got up to add more wood to the fire as it was about to go out. He looked at me with wide opened eyes and continued: “If I get you right when we reach old age and can say on our deathbed we lived our life as it was ment to be regardless of how it was even it was the worst life in the world like Hermann Göring before taking the Zyanid capsule to end his life said twelve years of life with Adolf Hitler was worth it that he is about to end his life at his own hand...that such a life is a life from an individual perspective seen a life lived well?“

„Very good question,“ I closed my eyes for a few seconds, trying to find the best possible answer. My head was aching a bit. I took a deep breath and answered: “I cannot speak to Hermann Göring; I can only speak for myself. And when one day I will lie on my deathbed, I, as of today, will say I saw much, I went through a lot caused by my stupid, foolish decisions we all make from time to time, as it is part of life...where I will eventually reach...I would do everything again as I did. The reason behind my saying so is God. He has brought me to where I was, I am, and I will be. Unlike my mother believing in God but does not have trust in him, I have broken the chain and exceeded my family history. Not only am I much healthier than my parents were with only very, very minor issues, but what I have seen in life, the lessons I was able to learn, what I have achieved in life, the people I know, the places I went to, the situations I went through...the whole package has brought me to inner peace. While others care about what others think about them and put them under stress, this can not shake me anymore. I waws asked to take my own name by my eldest sister Heidi Jürgensen, was asked by her husband Hans-Jürgen Jürgensen to die in Africa, the life of my wife Alberta and I was in danger in Ghana, I had money, at one stage big money and I lost it again, I fell to the ground and got up again, I never lost hope or my creative spirit, my believe God can trun your life around at any moment to good or bad. And I know of Vincent van Gogh and Peter Paul Rubens, one poor all his life and at the end his pictures fetch millions of dollars while the other one was rich during hid life time ending as a very poor man on his death bed and Franz Kafka not known to the world working as a lawyer for the German Pension Scheme in Berlin after his death one of the most renowened German authors. You see, this world is something special. It is a journey we have embarked on, and none of us has chosen to live, or to live the life received, but to be scared to take their life by themselves. All I can advise you, people just live it. To die by your own will is possible, yes, but not the best option. Live the journey that you have. My life`s motto always was, I want to feel the joy, pain, and suffering I want to get the most out of life. And I guess that is what it is all about. We must live our individual lives to the best we possibly can for us to get the most out of life. When we are dead, that chance is taken away from us. Many people live life as if they are alive but do not think about life. They simply live it. When you start reflecting on life and life matters, you dig deeper into the mystery of your existence, by which having the chance to answer the question why you are here on earth, and if this world would not make it without you, facing the fact that eight billion people live on planet earth.“

„The world can exist without humans,“ said Charles Darwin Jr. with a grey shadow on his face. Anyone in the dark night was able to see the black rinkels under his eyes.

„Sure...but God has decided otherwise. Us to be fruitful and multiply and to make the world subject to us. We are mandated to dominate everything around us, and this mandate, unless we commit collectively with the atomic bomb worldwide suicide, we must, as a hamster, continue until death departs us from life. Take it or leave it, with God you cannot discuss. You can wish, hope, and dream...no problem. But to discuss with God about life...forget it. No chance!“

„Let him tell his story...please,“ asked Susanne Fröhlich, not to interrupt me in my presentation.

„To better understand what I try to say, allow me a derail first,“ I looked at Susanne Fröhlich, seeing she was not at all happy about my request. Finally, she gave up her resistance. I continued: “Maik Pöllmann from Berlin is an interesting case study.