It was the moment when I was battling day and night, wrestling and grappling to please God with my works for his blessings. I did not know that he had blessed me already.
It was the moment when I slept day and night in the house of God, untiringly scrubbing floors, dusting pews, and running errands, thinking it was God’s work. I did not know that God’s work is to accept Jesus Christ.
It was the moment I sought after recommendation from pastors and elders. I fervently kowtowed to their standards in order to please them. I did not know that God was pleased with me because of Jesus who dwells in me.
It was the moment I thought God never listened to my prayers unless I prayed with someone. I did not know that even before I asked him of anything, he had already done it.
It was the moment I thought God was not interested in me. I did not know that he died because of me and all things were working for my good. He was interested in me more than I was interested in myself.
It was the moment I saw others as evil when they came late to church or failed to come to church. I did not know that God loved them equally as he loved me.
It was the moment I counted my righteousness based on the approval of men. I did not know that I was righteous through the righteousness of Christ Jesus.
It was the moment I saw life as competition; desiring to compete with everyone no matter the consequence. What a loser I was! I did not know that you, O Lord, had poured in my heart so much love, not desiring to see me ahead of others, but to help others to be ahead and even go beyond me.
It was the moment I sought after my own needs and saw others as opposition and enemies; I constantly shot these people in my prayers with the Holy Ghost fire. I did not know in me was the love of God, seeking to do love and pay evil with good to all.
It was the moment I had to blame others even for my own mistake. I did not know that God was there in my heart to use my mistakes for his glory.
It was the moment I measured my relationship with God based on the hours and time I spent in moment of prayers. I did not know that God was even closer to me than my skin at every moment of my life.
It was the moment I saw God as a punisher, fearful, wicked and dangerous. I did not know how much love he had for me and how wide, and deep his love was for me. He was never against me, but with me.
It was the moment I measured my blessing based on the money, riches, favors and possession I acquired. I did not know the true blessings and riches of God, who is Jesus Christ, and all that belong to Jesus is also mine.
It was the moment I hated the word “suffering”. I wanted comfort and not to endure hardship. I did not know in me was the power of God to have dominion, subdue, face and conquer any hardship and suffering that come my way.
It was the moment I thought I needed to work hard, struggle and fight to get the Holy Spirit. I did not know that the Holy Spirit had been freely given to me.
It was the moment I judged people and passed judgement on them. I did not know that even in my wickedness and weakness, Jesus never judged me but drew me closer to God.
It was the moment I thought the only way to serve God was to be a pastor and singer and did all I could for such opportunity. I did not know that Christ had blessed the little I had for his glory.
It was the moment I struggled to deal with sin by overcoming it with my effort and strength. I did not know that the more I focused on the love of Christ, the wider the effect and power of sin against my life.
It was the moment I count those who refused to accept Jesus as their savior as Satanists. I did not know that God’s plan is never my plan and his plan was far beyond my understanding. He had plans for everyone.
It was the moment I did good to only people who did me good. I did not know that even when I was unworthy of God’s love and in moment of shame and pain, that was when Christ gave his life for me.
It was the moment I wanted to follow Jesus because of earthly honor and possessions. I did not know that Jesus himself in me, was enough and the contentment that nothing on earth can ever grant me.
It was also the moment I gave up on people who refused to accept Jesus as their Savior. I did not know that even till death, Christ Jesus never stopped working on me.
It was the moment I wanted to know and have just an encounter with great men of God. I did not know that I decided the moment, the time and the place I want to have an encounter with Jesus Christ of whom all those men are servant to.
It was the moment I struggled to find peace, joy, blessing, hope, favor, glory, power and honor. I did not know they were already in me because of Christ. All I needed to do was to understand him, walk with him, love him and make him the desire, the reason and hope of my life. Since I did that, I have never regretted it and I can testify, I am not the only one to say this. Jesus Christ is the truth, the life, the light and hope of this world.
Today, I thank God that I am no more in the moment of religiosity but a perfect moment of relationship with God through Christ Jesus….
Jeffery Amo – Asare