Walking through the valley of the shadow of death.
Some songs which helped when I was little by angry unique women like me, some of them original and less angry. As I said in my poem in Miss England writing has always been "for the angry women, beaten and bruised, with beautiful spirits not allowed to shine, hampered by bitterness. Women like me"
"Nobody knows but me that I sometimes cry.. Nobody cares.... It's win or lose not how you play the game and the world of darkness has a way of always knowing my name." Pink. The way I loved Pink, she could speak to my soul and I clutched unto her when I was being bullied. Clutch unto her when life is overwhelming and people let you down.
I can hear her voice" mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood, miss no way it's all good. IT DIDN'T SLOW ME DOWN... Pretty, please don't you ever ever feel like your less than f**** perfect. Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like your less than f**** perfect...if you ever ever feel like you're nothing your fucking perfect to me. "
With negative friends she told me" change the voices in your head make them like you instead ". So even if the whole world is scared" I swallow the fear..so cool in line and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time, done looking for the critics cause they're everywhere.. exchange ourselves and we do it all the time".
Then there is Mary J Blidge who said are you "broken heart again another lesson learned better know your friends or else you will get burned. I know" I gotta count on me cause I guarantee that I'll be fine. No more pain.. No more drama in my life no-ones gonna make me hurt again...why I play the fool go through ups and downs, knowing all the time you wouldn't be around.
Maybe I liked the stress cause I was young restless that was long ago" My favourite of hers is My life." life can only be what you make it, when you're feeling down you should never fake it, say what's on your mind and you'll find in time, all the negative energy will all decease, and you'll be at peace with yourself, you won't really need noonelse, except for the man above because he will give you love.
I can do bad by myself is another banger " somebody told me once that pain is a game we all gotta play but why am I in overdraft sudden death every other day." "since everybody knows what it is that I need to do.. do me a favour let me worry about me and you worry about you, I don't need no one to put me down, I'm on the ground can't get no lower... I can I do bad all by myself." " I've got my own dark cloud that has followed me for a while now. "My favourite part when I was dealing with people who acted like I enjoyed my sadness" don't waste time feeling bad for me, I didn't ask you for your sympathy. "
Then there is Christina Aguilera, "when there is no one else look inside yourself, like your oldest friend trust the voice within, then you'll find the strength that will guide your way. Young girl don't hide, you'll never change if you just run away. NO ONE CAN TELL YOU WHAT YOU CAN DO, NO ONE CAN STOP YOU, YOU KNOW I'M TALKING TO YOU. "
My favourite song of hers is Beautiful" I am beautiful in every single way, yes words can't bring me down.. to some "you're delirious so consumed in all your doom...you are beautiful no matter what they say. Yes, words can't bring you down." I also love fighter "if it wasn't for all that you tried to do, I wouldn't know how capable I am to pull.. Makes me that much stronger, makes me work a little bit harder. Thanks for making me a fighter. Made me run a little bit faster, made my skin a little bit thicker.
Makes me that much smarter...never saw it coming all of your backstabbing...i heard you're going round playing the victim now...you dug your own grave. If it wasn't for all your torture.. wouldn't know how to never back down. In the end YOU WON'T STOP ME. I am a fighter. "
Then there is Kelly Clarkson, this is about men who don't know if they want to be in your life but I extended it to people in general." I'm looking for attention, not another question should you stay or should you go. " The irritating people who act like the presence of them in your life is a life or death matter. " if you don't have the answer why you still standing here?" I want a love, I want a fire, to feel the burn, my desires" not people who run and hide.
"Do you care for me cause if you don't just leave." I love Since you've been gone " I even fell for that stupid love song.. Since you've been gone I can breath for the first time. I'm so moving on." To all my good relationships I say "cause we belong together now, forever united here somehow, you've got a piece of me and honestly my life, my life, would suck, would suck without you.. I've found out I'm nothing without you ."
She wrote Because of you when she was 16. "I cannot cry because I know that's weakness in your eyes, I'm forced to fake to fake a smile or laugh everyday of my life, my heart can't possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with, because of you I find it hard to trust not only me but everyone around me, because of you I try my hardest to just forget everything, because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in. Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because its empty." We have all been around people who make us feel like this. Yet she also sang" what doesn't kill you makes you stronger stand a little taller. "
I love Breakaway as well its my favourite of hers. As a child in that town I grew up in" trying hard to reach out but when I tried to speak out felt like no one could hear me, wanting to belong here but something felt so wrong here ... So I would pray I could break away. " I've felt that way so many times in my life. I" make a wish, take a chance, make a change and break away. Out of the darkness and into the sun but I won't forget all the ones that I love. " I've" gotta keep moving on, moving on, fly away, break away. I've got to take a risk, take a chance and break away. "
Now onto the incredible unique Fantasia. Girl" ever felt like you're dreaming just to find that you're awake. And the magic that surrounds you can lift you up and guide you on your way. " I love this bit." I believe in being possible if I reach deep within my heart. Overcome any obstacle won't let this dream just fall apart. You see I strive to be the very best shine my light for all to see" and "love keeps lifting me higher."
Those who've loved me genuinely through the years. " I believe in only surrounding yourself with love. I also love her song Ugly." She grew up in a hurry, teenage tears and bathroom mirrors will stick with your throughout your years." So" give me a rusty old rain solo. Give me good food that sticks to my bones...with dirt on my hands and scrapes on my knees, the feeling at night when I wash it all clean. I'm telling you girls, it's a beautiful thing trust me. "
We also have Jessie J." Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing is okay to not be okay, sometimes it's hard to follow your heart. But tears don't mean you're losing everybody is bruising- just be true to who you are.. There's nothing wrong with you are... I forgot what to do to fit the mould, the more I try the less it's working... Everything inside me screams no no no no. ... Yes, no's, egos fake shows, like whoa! just go and leave me alone. Real talk, real love, good love, good night, with a smile that's my home. "
My favourite of Jessie J's song is Who is laughing now." Mummy they called me names they wouldn't let me play I run home sit and cry almost everyday...oh so you think you know me now, have you forgotten how you would make me feel when you tred my spirit down...so make your jokes, go for broke, throw your smoke you're not alone, but whose laughing now? But who is laughing now?.. So raise the bar, play your cards be a star, but whose laughing now?"" Jessie, she broke out of the box, swallowed your pride, she got that ego cough, let the haters hate you're like way too late...see I got a message from you... hola I'm proud of you, omg babe your voice is like wow. My reply whose laughing now"
Then we go to Taylor Swift" you, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard calling me out when I'm wounded. Someday I will be living in a big old city and all you're ever gonna be is mean. " My bullies and some people who hurt me are still just mean." Why you gotta be so mean? " This is for the unworthy men and other unworthy people that came my way." we are never ever getting back together, like ever".
Then we have the lovely Amy Winehouse. " I told you I was trouble and you no I'm no good." "They tried to make me go to rehab I say no no no, yes I've been black but when I come back, you'll know, know, know. Some people use to suggest I need help and I'm talking about the ones who didn't say it in a nice way. "the man said why do you think you here. I said I got no idea.. I just, ooh, I just need a friend." If you've ever been there.
Sadly unfortunately she didn't manage to rid herself of people on their sanctimonious horse and find true friends who could help her, though she had a loving partner and family, she didn't shake her demons and died. The friends who abandoned her turned up to her funeral. I've been lucky to have a few who always stick by. If I put my hope on those who are never there and continue to put you down with.
You're so negative, I don't have time for this have my own life, why can't you just get yourself together and I am protecting my peace so won't be talking to you. "All I can ever be to you is the darkness that we knew ... My tears dry on their own." You know those self absorbed preachers I'm taking about.
If I didn't cut them off don't know where I'll be probably would have gone " back to black." I love this from her " I don't understand why do I stress a man when there's so many bigger things at hand.. So this is invitible withdrawal...should just been my own best friend.. I fuck myself in the head with stupid man. "
Next we have Emil Sande" My God I'm breathing underwater. " When the money and good times are gone and all my fake friends have vanished." You won't find him trying to chase the devil for money, fame, for power, out of greed... When I can seem to find no help or love for free... When all I need is a hand to stop the tears from falling. I will find him next to me."
Dedicated to my first love ( who stuck by me when so many vanished through one of the toughest times in my life) and those who are always next to me. When" I've giving up when no matter what I do is never good enough, when I never thought it could get this tough. That's when you feel their " kind of love." I" don't ever question if" their "heart beats only for me." When " I'm crying out, I'm falling and can't pick my heavy off the ground".
When the so called friends I thought I had haven't stuck around. That's when I feel their kind of love. Even though sometimes I get angry and I say what I don't mean. I know I keep my big heart protected far away from my sleeve. Yet they also know my heart only beats for them.
When they've "given up, when no matter what they do is never good enough, when they never thought it could ever get this tough, that's when they feel my kind of love, when they are crying out and they feel like they can't pick their heavy of the ground. When the friends they thought they had haven't stuck around that's when they feel my kind of love. "
Read all about it is my favorite from Emile, " you've got a heart as loud as lions so why let your voice be tamed. Maybe we are a little different there's no need to be ashamed. I'll leave it here.
I love real music, with real soul, " yes no's ego's fake shows like whoa! Just go and leave me alone! Real talk, real life, good love ( Jessie J) " is what I love.