A Clear Enigma

tonight as i sit in this dark corner
surrounded with cobwebs, empty beer cans, "maybes" and "what ifs"
watching the dancing smoke from my joint struggle to kiss the ceiling before passing out
as vagabond cats break the silence by playing wildly on the rusted aluminium sheets over my head
my pen spews a sad truth
"I'm not the kind of guy my kind of girl wants to be with"

"my love overwhelms her. it's a little too perfect", she says
it scares her
she fights it
she's afraid this won't last
like we're a typical ronda match
like we're the flame at the tip of a match
she's afraid she can't match up
so she foreshadows a mighty mirage of misery and clings onto it.

flow into me
flow with me
fuck forever
let's embrace the magic and lifetime shrouded in each day
you're better than enough
"great" isn't all rosy
sometimes it's thorny.
my desperate pleas fall on deaf ears

don't you dare say she leaves because she found someone
nah, she just ain't familiar with this
so she runs from it
too careful not to break my heart, she ended up breaking my heart.
so tonight my pen spews a sad truth "my love so raw and true, my love left me"
a clear enigma

- morkeh d